Josh went to the snow on Wednesday night, I saw him just before he left, but still I spent last night sleepless and missing him.
I can easily go a week without seeing josh normally, but when he’s far away instead of a suburb over its different.
I guess part of it is knowing when he’s out and about doing his own life I won’t hear from him at all. And I guess it’s also the fact that if I need him there’s nothing I can do about it.
I wish I wasn’t so desperately attached to this man, but he is the most important thing in my life. I love him.
Coke is great, I talked a lot and had a fantastic time and actually made friends and everything was rad and cool
10/10 would relive last night
I just realised how down and complainy my tumblr is, so this post is to remiss me of all the awesome good stuff happening lately
I have an amazing friendship with Jesse, I don’t think I’ve ever met someone who I’ve clocked with this well And still managed to be totally 100% myself
Speaking of, I have a personality now much more than I ever have! I no longer feel the need to mimic every person who I like
Me and josh are still in a weird place, but it’s the most wonderful kind of weird.. I think I kind of love him (which is scary and exciting)
And I finally got a job after months and months of looking! And I think I’m going to like it there, good pay, good hours, minimal time spent dealing with people, and I can finally do whatever I like to my appearance without worry
Plus the money thing means I can do the tattoo thing and the weekend thing and all the other good things
I’m in a pretty sweet place right now :)
I wish I wasn’t so hopelessly loving this half relationship thing I have going on with josh, because it’s so beautiful and perfect and I’m so scared if losing it