Well I’m properly single now.. Which is super shit and I think I’m goin to cry a lot.. And probably seek attention from a bunch if others
Doof land was the best and worst time of my life
Also I need to do something serious about Josh’s issues with my ‘neediness’
Note to self: not eating to punish yourself is the opposite of a good idea
So I’ve been doing the eat healthy go to the gym thing for 3 weeks now and I havnt lost any weight! I’m doing it all perfectly but still I’m a hugely fat peice I crap. And I want to cry about it.
All the other times the weight loss thing didn’t really work but it was okay because I didn’t really try.. Not it’s not at all okay because I’m trying really hard, and it still won’t work for me
House sitting for josh and i really wish he were here.. Bit since he isn’t, I’m going to masturbate in his bed and daydream that he is here for me
Josh went to the snow on Wednesday night, I saw him just before he left, but still I spent last night sleepless and missing him.
I can easily go a week without seeing josh normally, but when he’s far away instead of a suburb over its different.
I guess part of it is knowing when he’s out and about doing his own life I won’t hear from him at all. And I guess it’s also the fact that if I need him there’s nothing I can do about it.
I wish I wasn’t so desperately attached to this man, but he is the most important thing in my life. I love him.